Entries in destineybleu (2)


life is but a dream.

success is a journey, not a destination and for the past couple months my journey has been quite the spiritual one. there are people who come into our lives to guide us one step closer to our meant to be. i will save the details of my divine intervention for the destiney bleu "true Hollywood story" but you can refer back to my last blog to read a little about my clarity on angels living among us. 

we all daydream, check out, get in our zone, lose ourselves in our thoughts...but what happens when you connect with someone who is able to translate what you goes on in your mind into tangible form? a creative director so to speak. 

my director was phil the god

phil. you made it possible for the rest of the world to see what goes on in my mind, you created my reality and helped me live my dream out loud. you say "bleu" was a dream you had. it was a dream we had. i am not sure how i will ever thank you. 

this is my inception. im writing my dreams. 
immortal view of a star doing what im born to do.
i see the blue sky, see the lord's coming through. 


BLEU. from philthegod. 



faith over fear. 

we all have our fears. some valid, some equally as invalid. all equally debilitating. 

for me one of my deepest fears is showing my gift of dance. teaching is one thing, making it be about me is another. ive been dancing well over 20 years, trained in ballet, tap + jazz + hip hop, etc etc since 3. anyone who has worked with me from my college coach to my students. they ask why i don't dance the way they know i can...ALL the time. one of my biggest flaws is being so scared of being judged that i stay quiet in the back saying "just wait til they see what i can do" well. that shits done! from now on, its less fear. more follow through. 

as of lately my career has taken a turn toward my aspirations as a designer. doing so has caused me to put my focus on the creativity i have within to create something in the tangible form. something that makes people smile, feel inspired, start a memorable conversation, something that you see it at say "o wow. that's so me!" that's my perspective as a designer.

i was in Miami for a presentation, meetings were over, deals were done, i had the place all to myself. alone with my reflections of the whirlwind my life has become. mentally i had just had the 3rd version of the same disagreement with someone close. words weren't working for me anymore. i say the same thing over + over to them, then over + over again in my head. they give me a new excuse that of course i have a rebuttal for. almost an obsession. self sabotage really. with the overwhelming life changes + emotions flying i  knew needed to create. its the only way to get my mind off things...and i mean that literally. any visionary knows what i mean by the "zone". nothing else exists. hours pass due to passion. without my design materials on hand, i turned to my driving force. the reason behind most decisions ive ever made. dance.

the lyrics to "Montreal" are breathtaking. it didn't take much to get me inspired to spin, kick + leap + throw myself across the space. it was the 1st time in my life ive let go + trusted my talent. 

this video is me taking the first step in not caring what anyone thinks. not holding myself back in fear of judgment that exists mostly within my own mind. i will take a moment to say yes-i know my hair is a mess, i have on no makeup, im dancing in my underwear + my ballet teacher would roll over in her grave if she saw my technique. someone's gonna hate. but it isn't about any of that. this is about me. something i need to do more often. taking control of my life. pushing it to the limit. 

dancer or not. there's always a leap of faith to be taken.

shouts to acrylick for the gear. "love what you do & do what you love."